Victor

I have been sick to my stomach all day long after learning that my cousin Victor Brendan Mueller was killed last night.  He was only thirty years old and had one little girl and a baby on the way. He went to Provo to get Breanna's car to bring it home and fix something on it.  He had a friend with him, and his girlfriends little boy.  On the way home, the car ran out of gas on one of the three lane freeways.  He had a gas can and decided to go and get gas.  One the way back to the car with gas, he was talking on the phone with the friend in the car and running across six lanes of traffic in the dark at 10:30 at night when he was hit by a car and was killed on the scene.  His father Brent has just had open heart surgery only three weeks ago, and now he has the news that his only son has been killed.  My Mom and Dad and her entire family went to Brent and Olmedis's house and stayed with them until 5:30 that next morning.  My mom said that his mom had to take something to help her relax, and she couldn't stop screaming and crying.  She just kept saying she wanted to go and see him, but I guess the morgue wouldn't allow it.  They have to wait until his body is released to the funeral home.  My Grandparents are so heartbroken and cried the entire night.  My grandpa just kept saying her felt very sick to his stomach, which is what I have been feeling all day.  My parents are suppose to go on a 10 day vacation with my Grandparents this Wed. but with this sad news, I am sure it is  not going to happen.
Everything just seems like such a mess, and so wrong.  I am so sad for all of my family, my grandparents, and for my aunt and uncle.  I can not even imagine how they must be feeling, and I pray that I never have to know.
Sara has a neighbor that we meet this summer that went with a group of friends to California and went night scuba diving, and some how got into trouble and never came back to the boat.  They searched for his body for three days and then found him almost 100 miles away from where they lost him.  This is also making me so sick, because he was the age of my husband, he had young beautiful children at home.
One of my friends husbands died from a long fight with cancer and left behind two small children.  With all that has been going on I just feel like it is just to much.  Why are so many bad things happening?
I am so thankful that I know there is life after death, and that we can be together forever with the ones that we love.  I am so thankful that I have faith in the atonement and know that we can be saved and live with our Father in Heaven again.  Without this knowledge I think in times like these I wouldn't be able to function, and the thought of death would scare the pants off of me.  It makes me feel so sorry for the ones who do not know the truth, and think that this is it.
Also in a time like this, I just want to be with my family, and want to hold my children a little closer to me.  I want to keep them safe and help them do what is right.  I love my family so much, and it is crazy how much impact one family member can have on our lives, even when we don't see them a lot.  No matter what we are family, and we are bonded together and love each other no matter what.  I am sure that my Uncle and Aunt are going to need our prayers for a very long time.  With how heavy my heart has been and how sad I have been, I can not even imagine the pain they are in.