push my buttons.

Life has been feeling a little fast and crazy the past two months.  I swear we didn't even have a Novemeber this year..... I have no idea where the time is going.  I hate it when you have so much cleaning and work to get done that you have to push your kids away and tell them to go play and go away.... It is so nice when you can slow things down again and sit and enjoy the little things again.  Max is at such a fun age and all of our family is loving his little personality.  I love watching him and Adison play.  He just wants to do everything she is doing and follows her everywhere.  He laughs at what she laughs at and he just loves to be her buddy.  

Adison is going through a hard phase.... she is into everyones things and keeps breaking things and is just making mess after mess.  I don't know what to do with this little girl sometimes.  I was in tears twice this month with frustration from her messes and her sneakiness.  She likes to make potions and uses lotion and perfume and water and whatever she can get her hands on... and it is such a big mess.  She also loves to get into Alexis's makeup and she digs in it with her finger so it breaks and just looks so bad after she is done with it.  I have told her soooooo many times that she can not get into the kids things but she doesn't listen.  uhhhhh I am getting so frustrated with that.  But then she is also the same sweet little girl that loves to dance and play and is such a little sweet princess that it is so hard to stay mad at her.  She is also so funny and makes me laugh.  

Max loves his sisters and loves to cuddle in blankets. 

Adison "id a get warm two"  

How in the world is this girl growing up so fast?  She is so fun to talk to and we can talk for hours.  I love her so much and don't know how I am so lucky to have such a great daughter and best friend.  She wrote me a letter on insagram and it made me cry.  I will have to find it and post it because it was so sweet.

I went to Annettes house and helped her paint a ton and Max slept in the playpen next to my bed.  When he woke up he just layer there and talked so quiet and whispered.  He did it for at least a half an hour and then I grabbed him and put him in bed with me and we cuddled in bed for another half and hour.  It was a nice morning.  

My kids thought they were so funny when they hid inside with the lid on... I was about to throw it down the stairs until I realized it wasn't as light as it should be.... It was so funny.  Then I yelled at Alexis and told her she needed to go and put away the tote and when she opened it she jumped and laughed pretty good also.
I swear being a parent is such a roller coaster ride.  I hate the moments that I lose it and yell and act like a turd.  I have cried a few times from my bad moments this month and it had nothing to do with my kids.  It had everything to do with how I was acting.  I sometimes just feel like the biggest jerk and like I am the worst mom ever.   I hate when I get mad and yell way to much and I fell like all I am doing is getting after my kids.  I always feel so bad after and I know that they don't deserve it.  But for some reason they always forgive me and forget about it and move on.  I am so thankful for that.