Life as a mom

I am pretty sure it is safe to say that every mom has bad days.... This past month I feel like I have had my share.  I am not someone who cries and if I do it is like.... once a year.  But this past month I am not sure if it is because everything keeps adding up, or if I am overreacting to things or what but I have had about four or five good cries in two months..  That is a lot for me.  But the when I sit down and think about why I am really crying most of the times, it isn't because what happened or what my kids have done... It is usually because of the way I acted.  I hate when I know I have said something hurtful or yelled to much or hurt my kids feelings.  It hurts me more than anything to be mad and mean to my kids.  uhhhhh I have so many problems to deal with myself.
Max was sick and threw up for three days and he was such a good boy about it.  He wasn't really fussy, he didn't want to eat, but he still wanted to drink his baba.  That was so hard to not let him have one.  But one of the days he was sick I was in the kitchen and could hear him throwing up.  I ran to him and saw that he had gone to the toilet and was throwing up like a big boy.  I know it was so gross, but I was sooooo proud.  He did it three or more times after that.  I am so glad that he gave me one less mess to clean up.  Such a thoughtful boy already!  

Max loves playing with basketballs.  We have a net that holds a bunch of them and he loves to crawl indie the net and get them all out one by one.  Then when they are all out he gets stuck inside the net.  He does it over and over and it is so funny.  

I love the good cuddles I get from my kids.  They help me feel good.  

Max got stuck inside the net with a ball this time.  He was happy as could be for a very long time just chill'n in the net.  

Max has really started to get into everything also.  He can push chairs to where he wants and get whatever he wants.  He loves Elizabeths little fairy that fly's so he was really wanting to get it this day.  But then he found he really liked sitting in the sink so he didn't want me to move him for about 30 minutes.  

Max loves to play outside.  All my kids have always loved to be outside and I was better when I was younger, but I just hate being cold now.  I am so glad that they all love to go out and have fun but I like to watch from a window or sit by the fireplace..... uhhhh why is it so cold.  

This time Max made me jump.... I walked in to  the pantry for something and was in there for a few minutes and didn't see him on the floor in a net and all of a sudden he just made a grunt noise and moved and It freaked me out so bad.  He thought it was really funny and he laughed and laughed.  

These two are such good little friends.  I love watching these two play and hear how sweet they can be together.  Max follows Adison everywhere she goes.  When ever Adison leaves Max is so sad, and when she comes home he always runs and gives her a big hug.  It is so cute!

Adison is so funny.  She says and does somethings that just make you stop and think or just make you laugh.  She knows she is funny and then she will just keep trying to make you laugh.  The other night her and Max were running around in a diaper and she was in her underwear and she said, "he mom, we are both like little boys running around with our balls......." and then she held out her hand and showed me that they were both carrying a pool ball.  I had to hold back the laughter until I could go and tell Ryan and then we had a good laugh.  

Ryan asked me why I took a picture of this.... I guess it is just because this is how everything in our house/life is right now.  There is a saying that my dad used to say all the time when we were little, "when you have kids, that is what you got"  Meaning you really shouldn't try to have anything nice.... because you have kids so it is dumb to even try.  I swear they can undo anything I try to fix or clean in 0 seconds flat and without even trying.  I don't know how they do it most of the time or why they do it, but they do......

Adison is liking her hair but she keeps asking me if she looks like a boy or if it is growing yet.  She does look really cute with short hair but I am nervous to tell her that because I don't want her to get any ideas about cutting her hair ever again.  

I know that being a mom is a roller coaster ride and I think no matter what it is going to be worth the ride.  I am so glad that at the end of each day no matter how good or how bad it was I can still look at these kids of mine and be so thankful to be their mom.  I am very lucky to have been given these five beautiful, wonderful little children and to be trusted to be their mom.  It is such a huge responcibility  and so much work, but they are all worth it!!!!!