Alexis had her appointment in Logan at the ENT specialty hospital today and I decided to take Elizabeth along to see why she can not talk half of the time. Turns out she has acid reflex. So I really hope once I get her started on her meds she will be talking a lot better. The doctor said she had a throat that looked worse than some 90 year old men have had....
Then he looked at Alexis and didn't look very positive about it. He told me he wanted to get a ultra sound and a cat-scan so he could figure out what was going on. When I asked him why he told me that he was a little concerned that it may be cancer or some kind of tumor from the growth and how hard it was. He sent us right over to get a ultra-sound and it took forever to get in. When we were in the room and she was being worked on, I asked the tech if it looked ok and she wouldn't even look at me and said "you need to talk to your doctor..." and after that every question I asked that is how she answered.
I had a ultra sound where there was a lot of problems with the baby and that is exactly how they acted. They would tell me anything and didn't talk. Just told me I needed to talk to my doctor..... So I was feeling a LOT freaked out.
Right after that was over my sister in-law came to pick up Elizabeth so she could get her back to school. I was upset and ready to lose it as soon as I talked. I really tried to keep it together so Alexis wouldn't get nervous or worried. I must have done a great job because she had no clue I was really upset or that I had been crying.
I went to the Dr. office and he meet with me right when I got to his office.... another sign that I really didn't like. It took us a hour and a half to meet with him the first time.... he then told us that he had to talk to the radiologist some more and to meet him back in two hours...... LONGEST two hours of my LIFE!!!!!
When we got back to his office he told us the GREAT news that it was not cancer and that she has a stone in her saliva gland. (it isn't called that but I don't know how to pronounce it) He said that we could have him take it out... he would cut along her neck leaving a ugly scare... also he would have to take the whole gland out... making it hard to produce saliva... not sounding like a great choice. OR.... he had heard of a specialist in SLC that can operate on it without cutting and without taking out the whole gland and it is a easy in and out procedure. (kinda sounded like a no brainer) He also told us to try eating a lot of sour candy and keep warm and massage it. Hoping that we could somehow get it to pass the natural way. (That would be AMAZING). We meet with him again on Wed. and will find out more about what we need to do next.
In the short and painful amount of time that I thought my little girl had cancer.... It was the worst I have ever felt in my entire life. I had so many horrible thoughts and so many sick feelings. I was sick to my stomach... I felt like I was going to throw up. I was so frustrated that Ryan was not there with us. I really needed a hug from him to make it feel alright. I do not know how I could live knowing how much pain and suffering my little girl was going to be going through. I am so grateful and feel so blessed that it is not the worst, and that it is fixable and we can move on. I feel so horrible for the ones that are not so lucky, and I can now say that I have had a eye opener... and I really didn't like how it felt.
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