Eliabeths Birthday

 Elizabeth is turning 8 years old tomorrow and I can not believe it.  It feels like it was not so long ago that she was my sweet little baby girl just coming home from the hospital.  I have never really wrote her birth story down and it was a nice one that I wish they all could be like so I am going to write a little about it. 

 I was started with Alexis and so we planned on being started with Elizabeth also.  Annette has never been able to go into labor on her own, along with some other family members so I figured I would be the same.  I was scheduled to be started at 5:00 a.m. I had been feeling a little pain and feeling and hearing some popping sounds.  I didn't really think anything about it..  When I got in the room I put on my robe and felt like I needed to go to the bathroom and but then I couldn't go... so I felt like I needed to push.  As soon as I laid on the bed I felt a pop and heard it.  I asked Ryan if he heard it also and he said no.  I told the nurse that I thought my water broke.  She check me and I was only a four and said it had so she would call the doctor and let him know.  Within seconds I was in SOOOO much pain I couldn't stand it and the nurse came back to check me again and told me to not even move.  I had progressed in just a few minutes and the baby was ready to come out.  The doctor made it in the room, and with just three easy pushes she was born.  It was a really weird feeling being able to feel her move from the top of my stomach to outside my body. I did FEEL everything with Elizabeth and it was not by choice.  I do have to say that if they were all that fast and easy it really wouldn't be that bad.... but I still am all for epidurals.  The anesthesiologist still gave me a quick spinal block so I wouldn't feel a lot of the after pain and that was also GREAT.

While I was pregnant with Elizabeth I was so worried about loving her.  I thought that there was going to be no way I could ever love any child as much as I loved my first child Alexis.  I had two miscarriages before I had Elizabeth so I didn't let myself fall in love or have to many feeling while I was pregnant because I always feared the worst.  But as soon as that little baby was placed on my chest a HUGE rush of emotions came over me and I knew that I was soooooo in love with this girl and I had a lot more room in my heart to love her.  After we got home from the hospital I wanted to watch the video we had taken from the hospital.  But when I went to rewind it the tape for some reason was eaten up by the player.  I cried harder than I think I have ever cried before.  When Ryan asked me what was wrong I couldn't even talk.  He thought I had lost one of my parents with how hard I was crying.  But it just made me feel so bad that I could never see that special moment when this little angel came into this world, and cried her first cry.  I also had so many worries about being just as good as a mom for her that I was for Alexis and I really wanted to have everything be fair for the both of them. 
Elizabeth is such a blessing in our lives and I am so grateful to have such a wonderful girl as my daughter.  She is so smart and kind, funny, loving, sensitive, sweet, softhearted, and beautiful in every single way.  I love you Elizabeth and I hope that you have such a wonderful birthday and enjoy turning 8 years old.  Thank you for always being such a good little girl.  Happy Birthday!!!