So after we got home from our little trip to the reunion and the baby blessing we found out that it was time for Ryan to start a job they had been waiting to start all summer. And he was leaving in just two days. It was all so fast and crazy that it didn't really feel real. But now that he is gone it feels like he has been gone for MONTHS!!!! I am not really great at being alone and it is hard to be at home with the girls without him. The girls are missing him like crazy and want to talk to him all the time. I only miss him when I am breathing so pretty much always.
It is crazy how when you are apart how much you realize you love someone. Even the really cool things I would love are not as cool unless I can see them or share them with him. Even after 12 years of being married, Ryan still gives me butterflies in my stomach when I get to talk to him, see him, or even think about him. I am glad I have my girls to keep me busy so I don't get to sad.... but there is nothing that replaces having my love with me. I am so grateful to have a husband that takes such great care of us and I know that he loves us. I feel like a part of me is missing while he is away and it is definitely the better part of me. So I really hope that this job fly's and gets done so he can get back home!!!
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