Not such a great day

My sweet little princess was burnt in a fire the other night.  I was burning up branches and other things around the yard and when it got to dark and cold I took Max and Adison inside the house and gave them a bath.  Ryan got home from work so he helped me finish them up while I went and cut carrots and started dinner.  A few minutes later I heard the front door close and I had a feeling it was Adison.  I asked Ryan if it was and he said it was Brytlee.  I kept on working on dinner but the feeling didn't go away so I asked Ryan if he was sure it was Brytlee.... He said he was pretty sure it was.   So I kept on cooking.  Then the feeling still didn't go away so I yelled "ADISON" and she didn't answer so I asked Ryan to go and see if she was outside.  As soon as I said that we could hear her screaming and crying.  Alexis ran her in and said that she had sat in the fire.  uhhhhhhhhhh.  The fire was pretty much out and all that was left was the hot coals.  The older kids were still outside with the neighbor kids and they were sitting around it to keep warm.  Adison went out and was in shorts and just sat next to Brytlee indian style and right were she sat down there was a few hot coals on the ground.  She jumped ups and stared to scream and the girls laughed at first and thought she was just being silly.  

It didn't really look to bad at first.... Ryan ran it under cold water for 10 to 15 min. and she hatted that.  I had called my dad and he told me to put egg whites on it.  We did that for a half an our and when we took it off there was a lot of blisters that started to come up.  

This was before the blisters.  But you can see the one on her ankle a little.  The one on the top and the bottom were the worst burns.  

I went to the temple the next day and didn't even know how bad it was until I got home and saw this.  It looked so much worse the next day.. I just made my stomach hurt to even look at it.  I had told my parents about it and it made my mom cry.  I told Adison that and she said. "oh, it's ok.  I am tuff." 

This is what it looked like day three and I was just sick.  I had not taken her to the doctor yet and didn't know if we were doing what we needed to do for her.  We had been reading a lot about it online and our neighbors had given us the Silver burn cream that we were putting on it.  It just hurts me to look at this perfect little leg and see this.  When I look sad Adison keeps telling me that she is getting better and she is ok.  She keeps telling me that she is tuff.  

It is really gross when it is time to change her bandage because it is leaking so much gunk and it is almost like a thick layer of mayo or something.  When you peal of the gauze it takes some of the skin off but I guess that is a good thing.  I guess the yellow skin that is trying to grow is what would form as scar tissue and so we want that to come off.  The stuff that is pink or red is what is good and we want that to stay.  

I took her to the doctor and he didn't really sugar coat anything.  He said the top and bottom burn were third degree burns and that they were going to be awful.  He said they would scar and there was nothing we could do about it.  He said all the little ones in the middle are second degree burns and they will scar, but not as bad.  They will be more of a white scar.  He then told me that we didn't have a burn unit or anything very close so I could just do it all myself.  He said that any of the yellow tissue needed to be scrubbed off and anything that wasn't a good pink or red color had to be scrubbed.  by doing that it would help with less scaring.  She is suppose to soak in the tub a few times a day and just scrub it with a cloth after it is soft.  She hated it when I did it but if she does it herself she does great and she does a good job also.  The first time we did it there was so much skin and junk floating around int he tub.  eeeewwwwwww....
It was cute when she got all the dark skin off it really did look a lot better and she got so happy and said, "oh this is going to make Grandma so happy now.  It looks better!"
I have been thinking about this whole thing and how it really was not suppose to happen to her.  I was warned by the spirit that she went outside and I should have followed the promptings a little better.  But it also makes me feel good because it makes me also know that god loves us and he didn't want to see this happen.  He wanted me to go and get her so she didn't get burnt.  He does love us and care about us and he doesn't want to see bad things happen to us.  I am thankful that we have warnings but I guess I need to be better to recognize the spirit and follow what it is telling me.  I am so sad that my baby has to go through all of this and I pray that the scars are not bad and that her legs will still be beautiful and perfect.  But I am also so impressed with what a big girl she has been through all of it.  She is so strong and has been great through all of it.