Emotional

Yea, it is Christmas break!!!  I went to the school a couple of times on Thursday for the girls last day and it as so crazy how emotional it made me.  After the horrible shooting that happened in Connecticut, I have not been able to look at a small child the same.   I teared up all through Elizabeth's Christmas singing program because the children were all close to the same age.  They were all so sweet and innocent.  There is something so wonderful about children that I know everyone should be able to see and feel, so it has been so hard for me to understand how someone could do this horrible thing.  On Sunday I was so emotional... I am not an emotional person so it was so weird for me to break into tears again and again.  Everytime Ryan walked by me and saw my eye
s all teared up he would just say "stop it" and tease me a little.  I wanted to change the mood and get my mind off of the shootings so we went to watch a happy Christmas movie with the girls and instead we watched the saddest tear jerker in the world.  It was called the heart of Christmas and it was about a little boy that gets cancer and loves Christmas so much that they celebrated Christmas instead of Halloween... such a sad movie. 
Anyway, I am very ready to have a good and Happy Christmas with my family.  I love this time of the year and love to feel the Christmas spirit.  I have had to get on my girls about fighting and yelling at each other because I just want Christmas to be more about love in our home than anything else.