Deep thoughts

So it has been over a year now and I still am struggling to get the baby weight off......  and I have been doing the gym thing about every day for the past year and have really cut back and been eating really healthy to try and make it work but not it is time for a new thing... the D word.  I really hate to go one a diet and I don't know if it is just me but when I am told (even if it is me telling myself) that I can not have something.... that is all I want.  My mind has been doing some crazy thinking about food.... even foods I really don't like I want to just pig out on.  Then I get on pintrest to see what is new and I see all the pictures of these yummy deserts and snacks and food that isn't so great for you....   not HELPING.  It has only been two weeks and I am doing pretty good at this but I REALLY want to cheat........  I go to bed at night thinking, "why am I doing this?" then when I wake up in the morning and see that I lost a pound I decide to stick to it another day.  I am not doing this trying to get any comments about it, I just think it is so weird how our minds work.  We want what we are told we can not have.  Even if it is something we didn't want in the first place.  For me right now.... it is just food that isn't good for me.....mmmmmmmmmm